Tiffy Jean

I'm 18, blond haired, blue eyed girl. I live in Augusta, Maine. I'm a senior at Cony High School.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

gaggagaggagagaggagaga

wow..... that's all I have to say about today.... I had fun.... "I hate you Tiffy" .... mygod... I love it.. I'm such a weirdo...
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Bobby took some of Jess's advice today... that was pretty cool.... um.... yeah.... tomarrow is my last day of work and here I am on the computer at 12:25am when I have to be at work in 5 hours.... so I best be getting some sleep.... I'll write some more tomarrow or something... I might not be going to Brett's tomarrow... err today after work... I think I wanna spend the night with Bobby.... he leaves for camping tomarrow... then that night I might be going to Brett's.... hmm... not sure anymore... I do however know that I'm not messing around with Sean anymore.... something Kyle said.... oh well...
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Jes might come with me to Iowa.... if we drive back up here with Kyle'smom then if I can talk them into it she's coming back with me... I don't wanna leave her here.. she's stuck in such a bad situation and she needs to get away from all the drama up here.
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yeah.. about that... I really do need to go to sleep so... laterz

Sunday, May 28, 2006

yo yo yo

Yeah so... Bobby fell asleep on his birthday so I never gave him his birthday present.... grrr... whatever... I went to see someone else and got some... that was fun.... I expierenced a lot I never have before.... wow.... it was good.... anyways... yeah... No he didn't stick it in my butt.... that's what my brother is saying but I swear to Justin no one has ever done that to me...he didn't even try... this one guy I was with almost did (on accident) but he didn't either... I stopped him....
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Yeah so Friday night I got laid and then Saturday I expierenced something else I never have before and.... it hurt... it still hurts... 3 times bitches too hard and with tounge... yeah so I still hurt from it... can't get laid tonight... maybe not for a while.... I hope I get to mess around with Jesy again before I leave... gaaahhh... it's like I'm always horny... Kyle called me a horn dog... it's crazy though... I told people I want to get laid before I leave for Iowa and damn... I am getting a lot of action these days.... did I suddenly get hott or something???.... every guy I come across seems to want me nowadays.
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I'm talking to Kevin on the phone right now.... gosh I miss him loads..... he's singing "fuck her softly".... I love him. Now he's singing "Bohemian Rhapsody"...
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Only six days now till I leave for Iowa.... here's the plan... today (Monday, Memorial day, the 29th) I have work 11-2pm... then I'm gonna find Bobby and try to give him his birthday present a little late.... go to the library either before or after he gets his present... I'm not sure. Then go to bed early cause I have to be at work at 5:30am on Tuesday morning... I'll be at work till 2... long-ass shift.... go home... pack a bit... leave for Gardnier.... come back on the first.... go to grad rehearsal... go to graduation on friday.... party at newcombs all night... sleep all day sat.... leave on sunday... yippie...

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

hey

NaToni... Jen... and Tori.... I love you guys...
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Bobby's birthday is in 2 days and he guessed his birthday present so now I have to get him something else too... some part of it has to be a surprise "In ur ear!" <--- what???? lol...
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anyways... lol... when do I get my dog pizza and 2-liter of chicken blood... I've been hungry for days waiting on that pizza lol....
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For some reason I'm in a pretty good mood... I think it was cause I read the comments and I feel loved...
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yeah... so I really need to get laid... what else is new.... grrr.... I guess I know if I get really desperate their's always someone who wants to sleep with me... but I don't want him... and the guy I do want isn't into me... and very far away.... gaaa... dodododododododododododdoodododododo... I'm bored... I'm gonna post some sexy Kevin pics now.... lataz

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

gaaaa

preamature ejaculation is a horrible problem to have and I feel bad for all the girls out there who are in love with guys this happens to because damn... when your getting really worked up and the guy gets off after only a few minets.... and you don't feel like you got anything... damn... it sucks...
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in other news.... only have 12 days left before I take off to Iowa... can't wait to see Kyle... I really hope Kevin will get to come down... that would be so awesome... and if Jen could come down... wow it would be almost perfect (Justin can't come)... though where would we all sleep? Kyle's bed ain't that big.
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NaToni's coming down the weekend I leave... maybe I will get to see her one last time after all... she's going down to texas for summer and she's gonna finish out high school there.... I might never see her again... but as long as she keeps up to date on her Xanga then I know we will keep in touch... and that girl is obsessed with her Xanga so I don't think I have to worry... it'll just suck knowing she's in another state too... I gotta tell Justin... I wonder what he's gonna think about her staying in Texas... *tears*
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<--- Jen at prom.... cute as hell....

Monday, May 22, 2006

Awesome

3 times bitches what!!!!! lol.... last night I had a chance... but it was with the wrong person so I passed it up... tonight I might have a chance but who knows... something is definatley gonna happen... me getting laid is a definatemaybe....
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anyways.... he's here and I want him so bad..... gaaaa..... but he's watching tv with my little brother.... god... he came over here wanting to read this... *sighs*
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countdown till I leave for Iowa: 13 days.... can't wait to see Kyle and Tori and everyone else... but god I am gonna miss Jen and Jes and Bobby and Sean and Cormier and Newcombe and Shandi and Luke and Andrew and.... everyone..... why do I have to leave one set of people I love just to be with another set of people I love... I wish all the people I love could just be together in one place.... and I better be in that place too or what the hell would be the point.

Friday, May 19, 2006

Hey everybody who loves and cares about me immensly... that is the 3 people or so in the world who read this and leave me comments.... Jenyfer is one and Jen hunny I love you with all my heart... I have a lot of shit to talk to you about. Kyle sometimes comments when he feels like it but I know he loves me.... 17 more days.... I can't wait t see you and Tori and everyone else.... god I love you so much!..... NaToni is another one... she usually reads up on what going on in my life and leaves cute little comments for me... too bad she hasn't been leavin any comments lately... it's bee almost a year hunny.... wow.... I love you.
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To anyone else who happens to read this... know that I love you......
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Now onto my big news... I have a pretty good chance of getting some before I leave for Iowa..... god I've been so wanting it..... ahhh... and knowing that a lot of my friends have been getting it and I haven't is making me jealous.... can't wait for 3 times bitches what! to happen again.... the hardest thing is gonna be finding a place to do it..... my room is off limits... at least my bed is... and Cullen's bed is off limits too because that is just dissrespectful...
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ok well i gotta go... write more later
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.somone leave a comment please... Jen I love you!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

"I'm So Excited!"

Justin and Kevin are at my house and I'm here so I gotta go... ohmygod... I can't wait to see them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Vey Vey Depressed

I am so depressed for reasons unmentionable on here.... Kevin, Jessi, Jen, Kyle, Tori, Justin, & Sean.... no one knows what I'm thinking right now and I can't tell no one... not even Kyle... and that's "what hurts the most".... I can't wait to forget my life...I wish I could just get over everything... I act like I don't care anymore but.... I hurt on the inside more now then I ever have... *tears*....
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Jenyfer I love you... don't be mad at me if you read this and ask me and I don't tell you... it's my own shit that I just have to learn to deal with because I can't change anything... but... yeah I love you.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Yeah so... apparently I can never see Gaby again because Scottie gave Cullen a liter and he started lighting things on fire and if I weren't fucking every guy in town then Cullen wouldn't even know Scottie.... for one... I'm not fucking every guy in town... I'm not fucking any guy in town for that matter.... I only had sex that one time when I was in Iowa so she doesn't know what she's talking about and also.... Scottie is GAY!!!!! So I definatly ain't fucking Scottie.... and another thing... it's not my fault that my friend is a retard and gave a 10 year old a liter... I wasn't like "Hey Scottie give Cullen a liter so he can go set things on fire".... I mean.. I wasn't even there and if I were there I wouldn't have let Scottie give Cullen the damn liter in the first place...
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In other news... I'm going to Iowa on time... so Mason City watch out.... only 26 more days till I leave... and after my 3 months in Iowa... I don't know what I'm gonna do because when I get back I won't have any place to stay unless I get into that collegebut of course the deadline for my Financial aid ran out so now I don't know what I'm gonna do

Monday, May 08, 2006

New narritive for night school

Tiffany Penney
May 10th 2006
Narrative paper

Bomb Threat


On September 7th, 2004 there was a bomb threat at Cony and the whole school had to walk up to the vocational school field. That was really bad because it was a really hot day, but what was worse was who did it. It was my best friend. He was at the golf range in Wellness 3 and he was showing off his new cell phone that he got the night before from his grandmother for a birthday present. He's always been the type to try to impress everyone and when one of his friends asked, "Hey can you call 911?" he goes, "I don't know" so he dialed it and hang up quick. He tried it one more time and just hung up and then the third time his friend goes "Hey, say you have a bomb at Cony" and he did. He says he was "dared" and he's "not the type to back down from a dare."
When we first heard of this I was in my first period English class with Ms Hardison. I was one of the stupid one who brought they're backpack with them thinking this wasn't too big of a deal. It took everyone at least 45 minutes to walk up to the field. When I got there, the first thing I did was I started looking for him but I couldn't find him for the life of me. I had all my friends looking for him too and people, (his friends) kept walking up to me asking where he was because, (duh!)... I was his best friend and I should know. I found out that his Mom was one of the many parents that day worried about their child's safety and was looking for him, that being the reason all of his other friends kept asking me if I knew where he was.
His Mom was a bus driver then and heard over her radio that there was a bomb threat and everyone was at the vo-tech so she drove up there looking for him. (In her car, not the bus.) It ends up that because he was in Wellness class he got a bus ride up to the vo-tech so he was late getting there.
Standing in the field with him and his mother he told our other best friend something in a whisper. I ask what he's saying and he says he'll tell me later when I get home. I kind of have a big mouth and he knows it. Plus I probably would have started crying right there and gave it away and he knew that too. We know each other very well. His Mom asked me if I wanted her to tell my Mom because only parents could come get you but at the time my mother had a broken foot and couldn't have come gotten me anyway. I wasn't scared, I knew it was all fake, it always is. His mother ended up driving him home, which meant that not only did he not have to walk up, but he didn't have to walk down either. I ended up walking both ways and that was annoying. I walked up with my two of my friends and walked down with like five of my friends. One of the boys I was walking down with told me, “Tiffy, I'm gonna tell you a secret, it was me" he says, and I was like “no it was a Freshman, who didn't want their picture taken” because it happened on picture day.
I didn't think it could be one of my friends because I didn't think my friends were that dumb but then again, I was sort of friends with the kid who brought the cherry bombs to Buker in 8th grade. While we were walking down we saw a girl pass out from heat exhaustion. The boy who had joked that he had done it made fun of her. When we got back to school I think it was lunchtime, so I went to the cafe' still oblivious to the fact that it was my best friend that was the idiot who called in the bomb threat. I joked right along with everyone else about how the person was so dumb and a loser and it was all anyone could talk about for the rest of the day. That is until a little later in the day when another bomb threat was called in.
The second bomb threat was also done by someone I knew, a sister of one of my friends. We all got dismissed so I had to walk home too. Her and three of her friends had gone to someone's house after the first threat and thought it would be funny if there were another one the same day or something.
When I got home, I went to see him. At first he wouldn't tell me because I had another friend with me, but once she went home he told me it was him. I was one of the first two friends he told. First he told our other best friend and then he told me next. He told me that if I told anybody he would never speak to me again, ever! People on my AOL kept asking me was it him? I had to lie to even my best girl/friend at the time and say it wasn't. I even had to lie to my parents at first. We had planed to do so much better that year because we had both messed up pretty bad the last year and he messed it all up. He was going to help me out with my math and I was going to help him in English. I still made him help me with my math. It was kind of funny though because his Mom told him to find the person who did it and “beat his ass” and he was like “um... Mom.” This all happened 7 days before his 16th birthday, because like I said, the cell phone was a birthday present. It didn't even have any minuets on it. It was really a tracfone without minutes so the only number they could call was 911.
The day after the "bombfest" as my English teacher that year called it, I skipped the day to spend it with him to show him I still loved him even if he was an idiot. The next day I went to school and I had to get my schedule all changed around so that I wouldn't have to go to Current Events knowing that he was supposed to be in that class with me. I felt really bad about it for the next week or so and he ended up just staying home all day and playing video games.
He asked me if he goes to jail will I write to him and I was like of course. But he didn't end up going to jail, at least not real jail. He was put in Charleston for 48 hours once because he failed one of his drug tests. When the bomb threat happened he was already on probation (he took all the blame for him and a bunch of his friends beating up on an old car) but he got put on drug court too. He had to do community service for 3 months and his cell phone was taken away (he still hasn't gotten it back yet). He had to go to AA meetings even though he's not an alcoholic and he had to take a drug test every Thursday. He also had a 5pm curfew and had been put on house arrest 3 times. He couldn’t enroll in any high school in Maine, public or private. They wouldn't even take him at the Goodwill/Hinckley school because he's not stupid or anything. He's actually very intelligent if you can believe that. He's especially good with numbers.
His mother signed him into state’s custody in March ‘05 and from there he stayed in various group homes around the state until January ‘O6 when he set out on his own. Now he is living in Houlton, Maine; has his own apartment that he shares with his younger brother, and is going to a branch of UMA studying business management and wants to go into real estate. He has really set his life back on track after getting himself in so deep and I am really proud of him.
Anyway, I don't think any of this compares to the whole stabbing thing that happened last year. When comparing a fake bomb threat to a real stabbing, I would rather go with the fake bomb threat; at least no one was really hurt.

Yay!

Yay... comments from my 3 best girlies.... NaToni, Jen, and Tori.... I love you guys so much... and Tori.... I'll be down on June 6th not July hunny... lol... gosh I miss you... and Jen you know I will miss you like crazy... NaToni... it'll probably be the same with you anyways... we never get to see each other anyways... well I gotta go... ttyl

Friday, May 05, 2006

yeah so

I don't know what I'm gonna do... if I go down to Iowa on the 4th then Kyle can't come up here to go to Elana's graduation.... so I want to stay here long enough so that Kyle can come up for it.... but.... if I don' go my mom wants me to start paying rent and there is no way I'm gonna start paying to be bossed around by a 10 year old little boy... nope.... not gonna happen... if I have to pay rent I must have my own room... sorry.... grr...
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well... on to something else.... Justin and Kevin came down on the 29th... Kev got drunk... really drunk.... didn't have too much fun I don't think... but it was nice seeing Justin again.... I missed him.... and now he has a phone and stuff so I can call him....
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I got caught doing dirty things in my bedroom... not anything like I was having sex or something but still... Sam walked her stupid ass right in and was like "What the fuck".... yeha... so that's another reason my mom wants rent... because I want to live like an adult and do adult things in her house.... if only she knew all the adult things I've done in that romm... I mean... come on....
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Jen is going to prom with some guy named Justin... she seems really happy and I'm happy for her.... prom.... *sighs*... I remember my prom night.... most girls lose there virginity on prom night... well at least in the movies they do... I didn't though.... Kevin wouldn't take me to prom, no, but he didn't mind staying at my house till like 3 in the morning.... jerk....
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anyways I'm posting some new pics and stuff so check it out