Sometimes I Really Dont Know Anymore....

I really don't.... I mean obviously I love the guy.... I just dont think I can stand him sometimes.... even when he's being nice to me... it still hurts like hell.... he'll never be mine.... no matter what I do... no matter how much I give... he'll just keep taking and taking and treating me like shit.... until there's nothing left and I'm heartless.... with nothing but my scars for comfort....


I just love him so much.... I hate my life!