Mad at Kevin.... again!

Well... Kevin and I are no longer friends... I don't know if he knows that or not but... thats how I feel... I wrote him a letter. I haven't seen him today... well that's a lie... I saw him on his poarch with a couple guys earlier... I was walking laundry over to moms when I saw him but I didn't talk to him or anything... other than that I haven't seen him today and... to tell the truth I really don't care... I wish I did... I mean... he's suppose to mean so much to me... certain people know why... but... I don't know. Last night I cried for... like an hour thinking about him and how much he hurts me like every day. I guess it's not just one thing this time... it's all kinds of stuff... but mostly it's the fact that he just doesn't care... he says he does... sometimes... and gets mad at me when I don't believe him... here's part of the letter.

Kevin,
Laying in bed and I can't stop thinking about you. I've decided something - I care way too much about you when you don't give a shit about me. You'll sometimes say you care about ,e and you yell at me when I don't believe you but I don't care anymore. You hurt me so much more than you make me happy. When you won't hug me or say you love me... it hurts so bad because your my best friend and it doesn't seem to mean anything to you. I'm obviously not yours. Kyle is a good friend and you're not. Do you know why? Because he'll hug me whenever I want a hug, he'll hold me and let me cry when I'm sad, and he tells me he loves me without me having to beg him to say it. Does it make you feel happy to know I cry when you don't say it, when you won't hug me? I'm constantly crying because of the things you do to hurt me and I don't want to anymore. I shouldn't be crying over you. You're here with me everyday so I'm not crying because of a good reason like missing you. I'm crying because you hurt me - all the time. So... I don't want you to talk to me or come over my house or anything anymore....... I wish we could still be friends but I don't want to be upset and depressed all the time because my bestfriend acts like he doesn't even care about me most of the time. The bad feeling outway the good and I feel like I need you now but eventually I will be fine without you in my life. It may take... oh ten years or so... but eventually I'll live on.

Lots of Love
Always and Forever
(even if we're not friends)
Tiffy

P. S. I'm sorry.


Yeah... so that's that... I gotta go... Matt's being an asshole.... fuck him!


New Kyle Song:

Christina Aguilera's "I Turn To You"

When I’m lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I’ll find the light to light my way.
And when I’m scared and losing ground;
When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around.

And when I’m down you’re there; pushing me to the top.
You’re always there; giving me all you’ve got.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that’s true,
I turn to you.

When I lose my will to win,
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything,
’cause your love is so amazing; ’cause your love inspires me.

And when I need a friend, you’re always on my side;
Giving me faith that gets me through the night.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that’s true,
I turn to you.

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain;
For truth that will never change;
For someone to lean on;
For a heart I can rely on through anything;
For that one who I can run to....
I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that’s true,
I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that’s true...

For everything you do;
For everything that’s true,
I turn to you...