He has no right!

Kevin has no right to be mad at me. I was mad at him first. Now he says he hates my fucking guts and hopes I fucking die. Well... ya know what... just because I’m mad at him doesn’t mean I hate him and want him to die. God.

Jen tells me she doesn't want to get in the middle of it when all I called her for was to tell her I wasn't talking to her boyfriend anymore. I just wanted to let her know and she goes blah blah blah bitch bitch bitch blah blah blah... well ya know what fuck her. I just won't call her anymore when I need help.

Ok Jen called me back and I explained to her how I was not trying to stick her in the middle. That I just wanted to let her know that when Kevin calls her I won’t be there to talk to her and when I call her Kevin won’t be here to talk to her so she shouldn’t ask me to let her talk to him… I know she won’t be asking him to talk to me… she never does…

Anyways… I also asked her if I can ask Alicia out again and she said she didn’t care but not to come to her when Alicia breaks my heart again… well I won’t… I don’t plan on letting Alicia play me and break my heart again. Nope!

Justin told me that I make up shit to be mad about. That I am always unjustified and I need to chill out more. He says this is what always made him mad at me back in the day. He says I get mad for no good reason… well ya know what… to me everything I get mad about is a good reason. Or else why would I get mad about it? DAMN!

Kevy’s Song to Me:

I Wanna Be There ~Blessid Union Of Souls

Won't you let me catch your fall
Won't you let me lend a hand
Those lonely eyes have seen it all
But love's too blind to understand

'Cause you don't know what you have
'Til your everything is gone
You need someone to show you how to live again

I wanna be there when you're feelin' high
I wanna be there when you wanna die
I'm gonna light your fire I'm gonna feed your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when you're feelin' down
And I'll be there when your head is spinnin' 'round
I'm gonna be your lover gonna be your friend
I wanna be there 'til the end

You wouldn't know that I was there
'Cause I have been there all the time
And if I had my way I'd hold you in my arms
Leave this madness all behind

'Cause you got so much to give
But you throw it all away
And all you got to show for who you are is pain
Well I got so much to give
If you'd only let me in
I'm gonna take the time to show you I'm a friend
You'll believe in love again

I wanna be there in the pouring rain
I wanna be there when you call my name
I'm gonna light your fire I'm gonna feed your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when I'm out of town
And when your whole damn world is crashing down
I'm gonna be your lover gonna be your friend
I wanna be there 'til the end yeah

Music Turnaround

'Cause you don't know what you have
'Til your everything is gone
You need someone to show you how to live again
And I got so much to give
If you'd only let me in
I'm gonna take the time to show you I'm a friend
You'll believe again

I wanna be there when your baby cries
I wanna be there when they tell you lies
I'm gonna light your fire I'm gonna feed your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when your nights are long
And when you're feelin' like you don't belong
I'm gonna be your lover gonna be your friend
I wanna be there 'til the end

I'm gonna be there in the mornin'
I'm gonna be there in the night
I'm gonna be your lover gonna be your friend
Gonna be there 'til the end yeah