Problems

Kyle did this "About me thing on his blog and said to write about yourself when commenting so I did... it was so long that I wanted to add it to mine too so here it is:

My info:
I'm 5'6 1/2.....um... yeah right.... I have dyed blond hair with brown roots that are starting to show horribly... ok they have been showing horribly for a while but someone told me they like it better that way... thinking about re-dying it since that someone is locked up for 45 days and won't be seeing me anyway.... My name is Tiffany Jean Penney. I am white - yes I know, it's sad. I was born in Augusta Maine where I have lived my entire life. Except for like 4 months where I lived in Hollowell with my sister and her boyfriend - and all his hott friends (my boyfriends-lol) Plus I lived in Lewiston with my dad for 2 months when he kidnapped me when I was like 6.... I don't have a boyfriend.. I have a lot of Best friends too... with Kyle being the best! 1.Kyle 2.Leola 3.Justin 4.Jen 5.Kevin 6.Kiwi 7.Josh 8.Nick .... I grew up moving a lot too... just always in the same city... Augusta. I'm 18 and still a virgin dammit!... and I'm finally ready to lose it.... Hurry up Justin and turn 20...lol... I have one nephew and 3 nieces, my nephew lives with me. I have four brothers and two sisters. My older sister Laura is 24 and lives with her boyfriend and two of her kids, my younger sister Sam lives with me. My younger brother Nick,16 lives with me and my 3 other brothers(Nathan, Corey, and Eric) live with my Dad in Greene, Maine. I hate my life and wish it were easier to be me. The only thing keeping me going is the thought ofKyle coming back for Summer vacation. I never have any money and I never get laid either... oh plus I'm desperatley in love with a loser who doesn't feel the same way back... and I ruined my one and only chance with him DAMNIT! I've been into one real fight... and I got my ass beat... two against one where one of them was bigger than even me... stupid slutty bitchess... ohhh bad memories....
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Some things I want to add that Kyle didn't write in his.... I pour my heart and soul out onto paper because I use to want to be and author and a poet... but now I want to be a massuse... I want to go to school for massage therapy and learn acupuncture... ohhhh needles...
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That was that... there was also a couple little personal things to Kyle but... yeah... um... today I missed Justin really bad... me and Kevin keep listening to my Ultimate Justin cd and it makes me cry... most of the songs are starting to remind me of Kevin now though because we always listen to them together... a song that used to reming me of Justin... Blessid Union of Souls' - I Wanna Be There... well Kevin says it reminds him of me....
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Today after reading Kyle's blog in computer class.... and crying by the way.... I went and found Kevin in Freshman Academy and made him hug me... yes I said made... he was willing to anyways but he really didn't have any choice...he was almost last for class... I just wanted one of the boys to hold me... I miss the old days so much... if I could only turn back time... to before everything bad happened... before we all broke up and the sexual stuff started to get in the way... I mean... sure everyone acts the same... but.... there's just so much more there now and I wish it could go back to being simple again.
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If you're around someone enough, you get your chance. Too bad I always fuck it up!
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God I hate my life!
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And I really miss Kyle....
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and Justin.....
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44 days left......
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God I am living in HELL!
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G2G.... love ya'll....write more laterz....