ok... time for a real post....

I've been posting page after page of quotes so I think it's about time I post a real entry.....
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Last night I called Justin and he really had left New Beginnings.... I don't know if he went to Kids Peace or somewhere else..... I don't know what happened to him... all I know is he's gonna be gone for 45 days without any contact to the outside world aka... me!
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I don't know what I'm gonna do... today I laid in bed just thinking about him and how much I miss him and I fell asleep... after I had slept all day long too... I'm so depressed... at least we made up (sorta) before he left. I really wish Uncle Shawn would have let me go... I wish I had never let him go when I had my arms wrapped around him..."Do you know how hard it was for me to let you go every time I had you in my arms?"<---- one of my quotes. . . Now he's gone and I feel all alone. I've barely seen Kevin the last couple of days... I don't know what's happened there.... Maybe it was that note I wrote him in school on Tuesday... maybe he wasn't impressed. Who knows? Who really cares?.... I love Kevy, but not that much damn! . . I kinda want to see Brett again. I miss that kid. . . Tomorrow I guess Jen is gonna come over after school. Fun, fun, fun ahead.... . . Don't know... hmmm.... I think I finished my grad speech... only two more classes of night school and I'm done with that.... I kinda like night school so it sucks a little... Specially like Chad lol.... he really is so cute... plus he's like a big stoner which for some reason is a huge fucking turn-on..... I just think I'm ready... I am so ready to lose it.... cosmic horn lol.... ever read Away Laughing On A Fast Camel... That's what I'm reading currently.... it's good...
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Um.... I didn't get to talk to Josh today online and that made me sad.... I think he said Mon, Tues, and Wens he had class but he wasn't on. Maybe he said Thurs not Wednesday and I got mixed up. Anyways... Josh is really cool... I can't wait to meet him! And I had better be able to meet him or I will be soooo mad! Anyone related to Kyle is cool in my book... any of Kyle's friends are cool in my book.... Kyle has great taste in friends.... that's why Me and Justin are his best!
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Anyways... guess that's it... I'll write more later from school probably.....who knows.... gtg
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I Love You Kyle James Sanchez!
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Justin David Tilkins! Jenyfer Clark! Leola Colby! Keria McKenny! Kevin Tilkins! Josh Fletcher! NaToni Sapp! Jami Ballard! Alicia St Pierre! KK! Michela! Monica! Cora! Nick! Megan! and anyone else who I missed... Love ya'll much as NaToni would say... lol.... she's so adorable!