My Chat with Josh

I was online almost all day and this is my chat with Kyle's cousin Josh... whomn I may have a tiny bit of a crush on....
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ME!: Josh
ME!: ur still on
Josh: sup
Josh: yup
ME!: well... I'm positive now
ME!: that’s what I had to go do with Kevin
Josh: oh good
Josh: I just updated my blog
ME!: cool
Josh: u should read it
ME!: I will
Josh: ok what’s happening
Josh: I got 2 dumb bitches starting stuff with my girl and Kyle’s girl
Josh: so what u up to
Josh: ?
BUZZ!!!
Josh: well have a good night
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ME!: Josh
Josh: wow ur back again
ME!: yeah
Josh: where u keep going
ME!: and ur still on
ME!: lol
Josh: yup till 9 or so
ME!: oh its past nine her ... time difference lol... I forgot
ME!: here*
Josh: oh its cool
Josh: yea its only 8:30 here
ME!: I went to call Justin
Josh: oohhh well let me know when u just get up and leave
ME!: ok
ME!: I’m sorry
Josh: its ok I still love ya
Josh: I’m not fretting
ME!: lol
Josh: so what’s cracking
ME!: mmmmm....food
Josh: mmmmm that sounds really good
ME!: it is
Josh: all I have had to eat today was a hamburger at like 11:00 am
Josh: brb in like 5 need a smoke
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ME!: chicken pieces, French fries, and cheese lol
Josh: oooo yummy I’m back
ME!: I got the munchies
Josh: I had a guy with a purse hit on me
Josh: lucky
ME!: lol
ME!: eww
ME!: yeah I know
ME!: u will be too when u get up here
Josh: oh ur gonna share
ME!: hell yeah
ME!: I hate doing it alone
Josh: oooo lots and lots???
ME!: usually every night
Josh: oooo yay
Josh: u gotta share munchies too
ME!: yeah
Josh: ok
ME!: yeah
Josh: yippee
ME!: lol
Josh: school is so boring
ME!: I'm sorry
Josh: I’m out of class but I got to wait until my dad shows up
ME!: oh
Josh: so what’s happening
ME!: nothing really
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Josh: c’mon woman! talk to me
ME!: food again sorry
Josh: ok well what u wanna talk about
ME!: um...
ME!: I forgave Justin
ME!: when I called him
Josh: yay
ME!: I don’t know how but he turned it around on me
ME!: and suddenly he was the one mad at me or something
ME!: I don’t quite know how he did it
ME!: but he's good
ME!: Josh?
ME!: u still there?
Josh: ya
Josh: sry
ME!: doesn't that make him good....???
Josh: yea I guess
ME!: at like manipulation
Josh: kinda dirty and rotten but good
ME!: right
ME!: he’s such a jerk
Josh: yea
ME!: yet I'm smiling thinking about him..... what is wrong with me?
ME!: I wrote a poem about how I feel when he’s away
ME!: I start to forget about him
Josh: I’m not sure what’s wrong I wonder the same thing
Josh: about me
ME!: but then I see him again and it all floods back... or even today... I was so mad at him but I talked to him for 20 mins and suddenly I love the guy again
ME!: I told him about me starting to get over him
Josh: oh what'd he say
ME!: I told him I liked someone else
Josh: oh what'd he say
ME!: he wanted to know who
ME!: and I said I didn’t want to tell him
Josh: well did u?
ME!: and he kept bugging me and bugging me
Josh: ...
ME!: and I was like "why do you have to know everything?"
Josh: .....
ME!: and he's like "Tiff, how long have you known me?"
Josh: and...
ME!: and I started laughing and laughing
Josh: like I said, and....
ME!: because.....one time he was talking to Kyle and Justin goes "Kyle how long have we known each other?" and Kyle said "Two years" and Justin like cut him off and said "Yeah...since we were born"
ME!: I told Justin to say it again and I go "Uh two years"
ME!: and he goes " exactly"
ME!: so he didn’t get it and I had to tell him the whole story
ME!: Kyle would have got it.... Kyle always remembers that stuff
Josh: so did u tell him or what?
Josh: ur changing stories on me
ME!: Justin remembed too after I told him
ME!: about it
ME!: Anyways when Justin said "How long have you known me" he was referring to shouldn't I know that the boy is curious as all hell and always wants to know everything
ME!: since I've known him so long (I Should know that about him)
ME!: anyways he said he was gonna hang up on me so...
Josh: ok but what did u tell him
ME!: I go "pick a letter of the alphabet and I'll tell u what letter it starts with"
Josh: ok
ME!: and he starts goes A-I.... but when he got to J... I stopped him
Josh: ok I still don’t get it
ME!: he couldn’t figure it out and I told him he didn't really know the person that well but he kinda did and stuff.... and that this person was the 2nd sweetest guy I had ever talked to
ME!: the first being Kyle
Josh: who’s the person already
ME!: and then we talked about Kyle for a while
ME!: see u r so impatient
ME!: just like Justin
ME!: he is always so curious
Josh: well u keep changing the main point of the story on me
ME!: I asked him if he was jealous
ME!: and he said no but he was fixing to get mad at me
ME!: fixing....lol.....so cute
ME!: anyways I like someone else
Josh: awwww I’m so in love
ME!: with Tiffany?
Josh: yea
ME!: did u figure it out?
Josh: u should hear what she wrote me but u can finish and ill tell u my story tonight
Josh: if u call
ME!: ok
Josh: cuz I gotta go soon my dad should be here
ME!: I still gotta ask
ME!: oh
ME!: how long before ur home u think?
Josh: half hour tops
Josh: usually like 15- 20 min
Josh: depends on how fast my dad drives and if he has to stop anywhere
ME!: oh
Josh: so should I let u go and talk to u then?
ME!: I guess so
Josh: ok well when u wanna call me so I know
ME!: 10:00-10:30 ur time
Josh: ok that long
Josh: ?
ME!: its 10 here
ME!: so nine 30 10 maybe
ME!: ur time
Josh: ok well see u then!
Josh: my dads here
ME!: kk
ME!: ttyt
Josh: ttyl
Josh: love ya
ME!: love ya too


Yeah... the secret guy... could anyone figure it out? ... I did eventually end up telling Justin. I had to... he said he loved me and apreciated me as a friend. I can't believ he twisted it all around on me.... and then I came to post this here. I read him my poems Desertion and Hurt. I hope he got them.. he realized they were written about him. I know that much. I realyl didn't want him to go away for 45 days with me still mad at him... he wouldn't even know I was and by the time he got out I would have been so biter and everthing only thinking bad stuff about him for over a month... I'm kinda glad we talked it out. I love him so much.
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But no Kevin I am not getting rid of the previous entry because that was how I felt at the time and I don't like liars and I don't like to lie about stuff.... there are some things that are serious secrets and some stuff that even though they are important, they have to be kept secret from certain people.... I don't care so much that people know I hated him at one time. Who gives a fuck - not me!... Let people think what they want... as long as I have my very best friends I'm fine. I don't have to care what other people say or think about me. The only people who's opinions matter are the people who I love. Kyle, Justin, Kevin, Jen, Leola, Kiwi,.... Michela, NaToni, Jami, Alicia, Nick, Brett, Monica, Josh, Cora, David, Jaylyn, Melissa, Larry, Travis, ... anyone who I missed.... I love you.
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Mostly I Love Kyle!!!