comment on Kyle's blog.....

This tells almost everything about today so it's good enough for me:

Kyle... I'm all positive again...

this time thanks to Kevin....

not only positive but I played magic cards earlier too.

First Kevin and me walked home from school,

then we worked on his blog a little and then he started watching Fight Club

so I went upstairs to go through my closet for stuff for the Edge’s rummage sale...

what I really wanted to find was my prom dress...

tonight is the senior prom and I asked Kevin to take me but he said "no"....

you would go with me if you were here right?...

I'm sure u would... unless some really, really hot senior girl asked you or something...

then I would expect you to go with her... hell I'd cheer you on...

But yeah... Kevin said no...

you'd think that after all I've done for that boy

that he could do one little thing for me like take me to my senior prom

so that I could at least go....

my mom even said she'd pay for it

because I haven't gone to a school dance or function in 4 years of high school..

I finally take some interest and I can't go because I don't have a date

and don't want to look stupid. Kevin is one of my best friends...

why couldn't he bring me... just as friends...

I don't know what his problem is???.... and it's not like he could bring Jen....

it's SENIOR Prom, no underclassmen couples allowed....

he would have to be the date of a senior to go. It's not fair... I really wanted to go too…. And a bunch of my senior friends want to meet him…

when I say “I hung out with Kevin” about the night before…

no one knows who I’m talking about until I say Justin’s brother…

then they just know someone who he’s related to.

They still don’t know who Kevy is so I need to introduce him to people.

Anyways he’s dumb and mean.

A little earlier he said he’s starting to consider it but I know not to get my hopes up.

I think he knows how much power he has over me now

and he’s starting to use it to hurt me to be more and more like his brother.

Just because Justin likes to hurt my feelings and kill me on the inside

doesn’t mean that Kevin should do it too.

I know you’d never do that to me and that’s why I love you so much.

Anyways… lol…. while I was searching my closet

Jen showed up and started telling me about almost getting into a fight with Trisha (eww)…

she wanted Trisha to hit her first but Trisha wouldn’t

and had a friend with a cell phone who would call 911 if Jen hit Trisha first

(Trisha’s a wimpy bitch) anyways…

Jen ended up punching one of those big rocks at the skate park instead of punching Trisha. While Jen was telling me her story David showed up.

Jen played half a games of magic cards with herself.

She said I owed her. Then Cora and Monica showed up.

Then David left and Kevin came upstairs.

We hung out for awhile just talking and stuff until 8:15 when Kevin walked Jen home.

Kevin came back in like an hour and Cora, Monica, and Kevin played a game of magic cards. Cora gave me about $3… I said “Fuck it” and gave in…. Cora’s kinda cute lol.

She says ur an ok kisser.. and that Justin was “awful”… awwww my poor baby….

Anyways they did that….then Cora gave me 4 cigarettes

so they could play again and that time I played too.

We waited and waited for it to be midnight

so that Kevin’s mom would have money on her card….

at around 10:30 we walked across the street to the church

to smoke cigarettes and stuff.

When we were all sitting down I started giving Monica a massage cause she asked me

so Kevin said he’s give Cora one. After a while my hands started to hurt so I stopped….

We talked to some guys walking down the street who asked for a cigarette.

We switched people …. Oh my god…

I had the munchies and ate a whole bunch of low carb ice cream and now I feel sick…. Anyways… around 2 or so we all got positive and now I’m yawning up a storm…

I got to go to bed… night… I love you.